She was perfect. A beautiful, tiny gift from God. Not yet a week old and you could see that she was as brilliant as her Daddy and talented as her Mom. It was likely she would be as generous and stubborn as all the Irish clan before her.
Her Daddy is my first best friend...Mommy is my forever friend. Why don't I love her? Why do I look at her and see all of this and yet not want to pick her up and whisper in her ear all of Gods plans for her? This has never happened before! Even 12 years latter I would pick up my sweet Howard, (11 weeks old, ugly as sin with an altitude to match) and coo and smile over such an amazing little creature.
Why do I look at her and not care? Not want to be a part of her life? I don't want to feel this way...I certainly try to not let it show. I doubt anyone believes me. Three years later I see I was right. She is so curios, so smart, sweet and stubborn. But I am beginning to see that is was never about her. This beautiful girl that people turn around and look twice at. She is beaming with the love all around her. She is a mirror of all that is good in the tired old earth.
It has always been about me. How could I resent her? Could I be jealous? Could envy be stronger than love? Or could I be weaker then this 'green eyes monster'?
She is a miracle. God given to celebrate the love of my brother for his bride? My niece is all the sugar and spice that I am not, but dreamed MY own little girl would be.
My Katie all I wanted...Sammi is not. She talks a mile a minute taking in all the world, has to teach her...Sammi does not. I could go on but I am beginning to dehydrate and my shirt is no longer absorbing my tears.
Don't cry for me though. Katie would have none of this. She makes you love her. She makes you proud to know her. Katie brings out the giggles even in the rain clouds. It may have taken those three years for her to soften my harden heart, but she did!
My brother took her out of my reach 9 years ago but no one could take her from my heart.
My lady Katie is now a bride! Sammi may never become a bride but when you look at Katie it doesn't seem to matter. That this is God's plan not all about me. I hope she will let me hold and whisper into her ear all that I wanted to 19 years ago. I am so blessed she whispered in heart.
Her Daddy is my first best friend...Mommy is my forever friend. Why don't I love her? Why do I look at her and see all of this and yet not want to pick her up and whisper in her ear all of Gods plans for her? This has never happened before! Even 12 years latter I would pick up my sweet Howard, (11 weeks old, ugly as sin with an altitude to match) and coo and smile over such an amazing little creature.
Why do I look at her and not care? Not want to be a part of her life? I don't want to feel this way...I certainly try to not let it show. I doubt anyone believes me. Three years later I see I was right. She is so curios, so smart, sweet and stubborn. But I am beginning to see that is was never about her. This beautiful girl that people turn around and look twice at. She is beaming with the love all around her. She is a mirror of all that is good in the tired old earth.
It has always been about me. How could I resent her? Could I be jealous? Could envy be stronger than love? Or could I be weaker then this 'green eyes monster'?
She is a miracle. God given to celebrate the love of my brother for his bride? My niece is all the sugar and spice that I am not, but dreamed MY own little girl would be.
My Katie all I wanted...Sammi is not. She talks a mile a minute taking in all the world, has to teach her...Sammi does not. I could go on but I am beginning to dehydrate and my shirt is no longer absorbing my tears.
Don't cry for me though. Katie would have none of this. She makes you love her. She makes you proud to know her. Katie brings out the giggles even in the rain clouds. It may have taken those three years for her to soften my harden heart, but she did!
My brother took her out of my reach 9 years ago but no one could take her from my heart.
My lady Katie is now a bride! Sammi may never become a bride but when you look at Katie it doesn't seem to matter. That this is God's plan not all about me. I hope she will let me hold and whisper into her ear all that I wanted to 19 years ago. I am so blessed she whispered in heart.
